I'm not brilliant.
I've been wanting to be the type of person that can make a list. Best this or most that. A list like this. You'll never make the list. This should disappoint you considerably as it does me. I've taken some time of considerable thought to figure out why it is that I desire to make such a list.
When I see men, influential men, who people look up to, who people respect, I have this feeling that I want to be those men. They drive cars that have heat and good sound systems, wear suits that cost more than $15, and know what they're doing in life. Men who have good wives and whose kids play soccer. Who laugh.
I have this thought that if I make such a list God will look at me differently; as a important person.
Jesus sat down opposite the place where the offerings were put and watched the crowd putting their money into the temple treasury. Many rich people threw in large amounts. But a poor widow came and put in two very small copper coins, worth only a fraction of a penny. Calling his disciples to him, Jesus said, “Truly I tell you, this poor widow has put more into the treasury than all the others. They all gave out of their wealth; but she, out of her poverty, put in everything—all she had to live on.”
She put in everything she had. All she had to live on. Does this bother you?
Most of the men that are on the above linked list are brilliant men. I'm not brilliant. But in the place of brilliance I substitute curiosity and discontentment which has brought me to where I am now; curious and discontent.
I've come to realize that the men that I look up to aren't necessarily the people that God looks up to. And I look up to a lot of really great men. I've come to realize that the meek will inherit the earth. That blessed are the poor in spirit. A good deal of the way I look at people comes from this worldly belief that God cares about power and success. How are you looking at people? I'll lite up a cigarette while you think. love. war.
Things to think about:
-Menthol vs non
-Ben and Jerry's $1 singles in the grocery.
-Wanting more out of life than you ever thought.
-Rules. Which ones you can break without guilt.
-Picking up people that need rides.
-Being up front with the lover that you love.
-What you are giving the people around you.
Things to read:
The sermon on the mount
Things to listen to:
The still quiet voice.